Okay so here it goes the honest truth is i cant handle you seeing other people it kills me and i want you happy sweetheart i do and the only way is that we let each other go i have to let you go cause i need too...you know if you think about it we don't talk near as much as we used to and i understand i never gave you a reason to love me or to be with me or to trust me that is my fault and i have to deal with it or i have to live with it. I want you to know that i will always love u and care for you and you will always be in the back of my mind but right now you are the only thing on my mind. Every time i think of you i just wonder how you are and what you are doing and who you are kissing and hugging. I cant do it anymore. you were the best thing that ever happened to me. I might not have my life on track right now but i feel i am doing pretty damn good then what i was. I know you said you would be here for me but i cant have you be here for me cause it is too much stress and pain. I should have told you this a long time ago and i am sorry. I know i told you that i would leave that door opened or cracked but honestly it needs to be shut. I hate to say it but i have to leave you in the past. i want you in my present but i know it wont happen. I feel like if we do close the door on us it will be easier to tell if we still are in deep mad love for each other but with it open we wont know for sure. You are an amazing man and i am happy that we spent the little time we had together, together. I hope we see each other again sometime down the road but i am not holding my breath, i'm not wishing on it, or i am not hoping for it either but if we do we do and that doesn't mean that is the time for me and you again it will prob be only a hello and goodbye. Please be happy and i hope you find someone you can live your whole life with.