i dont know if this is selfish, or selfless. All i know is that i worry about you everyday since you walked out the door. Seeing you drive away was like watching my hopes blow away to oblivion. after you left your sis came over i walk in to her with my bro, the pain i felt i couldnt fathom. i know that i may have been infatuated, but weren't you too? you said you wanted my babies i wanted that too. im not proud of what i did and i have changed. i wish to say sorry i wish to fill your house with flowers as i did before i wish to see you smile at me with your "mom" look. i wish to feel your soft skin against mine one last time....these are only wishes maybe even hope. i want to say sorry for being controlling i didnt mean it that way i just wanted you safe but i was the monster breaking your heart. if you cant stand me in the slightest; if i disgust you in the slightest; can you find it in your big heart to tell me you're alright tell me im alright. with love from every single thing that i have my amazon godess.