i dont know if this is selfish, or selfless. All i know is that i worry about you everyday since you walked out the door. Seeing you drive away was like watching my hopes blow away to oblivion. after you left your sis came over i walk in to her with my bro, the pain i felt i couldnt fathom. i know that i may have been infatuated, but weren't you too? you said you wanted my babies i wanted that too. im not proud of what i did and i have changed. i wish to say sorry i wish to fill your house with flowers as i did before i wish to see you smile at me with your "mom" look. i wish to feel your soft skin against mine one last time....these are only wishes maybe even hope. i want to say sorry for being controlling i didnt mean it that way i just wanted you safe but i was the monster breaking your heart. if you cant stand me in the slightest; if i disgust you in the slightest; can you find it in your big heart to tell me you're alright tell me im alright. with love from every single thing that i have my amazon godess.

Sarah,
When I heard that I was killing you, I was greatly distressed. There are very few things I have ever killed; among them are: a turtle, a snake, my health, my self-esteem, my ego, and my chances of being employed at the Writing Center. However, to my knowledge I have never killed a person. I e-pologize for having killed you. My only hope (other than that I've already made it into your will) is that ghosts aren't real because I know you would haunt me for the rest of my life.

P.S. Is marrying a ghost still legal in Vegas?

I promised that I would not trap you by telling you the depth of my feelings for you. I can't do that any more. It is too much like lying and I can't lie to you. I love you and I can't keep it in any longer. I'm sorry for breaking my promise but you needed to know.

Please don't feel trapped. I wont try to change our relationship any more than I already have. Your friendship means too much to me to lose you over this.

Jammer ou maat,ek praat so minagtend van Gert d t se baai.Dis jou gunsteling plek en ek sien dit nie in nie. Dankie vir die aanbod om kids saam te vat,vergewe my.

Eugene
(amaruk7)

Okay so here it goes the honest truth is i cant handle you seeing other people it kills me and i want you happy sweetheart i do and the only way is that we let each other go i have to let you go cause i need too...you know if you think about it we don't talk near as much as we used to and i understand i never gave you a reason to love me or to be with me or to trust me that is my fault and i have to deal with it or i have to live with it. I want you to know that i will always love u and care for you and you will always be in the back of my mind but right now you are the only thing on my mind. Every time i think of you i just wonder how you are and what you are doing and who you are kissing and hugging. I cant do it anymore. you were the best thing that ever happened to me. I might not have my life on track right now but i feel i am doing pretty damn good then what i was. I know you said you would be here for me but i cant have you be here for me cause it is too much stress and pain. I should have told you this a long time ago and i am sorry. I know i told you that i would leave that door opened or cracked but honestly it needs to be shut. I hate to say it but i have to leave you in the past. i want you in my present but i know it wont happen. I feel like if we do close the door on us it will be easier to tell if we still are in deep mad love for each other but with it open we wont know for sure. You are an amazing man and i am happy that we spent the little time we had together, together. I hope we see each other again sometime down the road but i am not holding my breath, i'm not wishing on it, or i am not hoping for it either but if we do we do and that doesn't mean that is the time for me and you again it will prob be only a hello and goodbye. Please be happy and i hope you find someone you can live your whole life with.

i loved the way you touched my hair i loved the way you looked in my eyes. Tho i know i will never have you again i am sorry for the way i hurt you my dear. I know you have moved on and tho i stayed i cant find the right words to say, that i love you and always will i wish that i would have made you happier then her..but for me to move on myself i have to hear the words i fear..i will love you till time lets go. I hope you have a great life and a very happy one and i hope to cross by you one day

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The days go by and it turns into weeks and weeks turn into months. the thought of you is always in my mind. The things i did to you are in the back of my mind. I want you to be happy and i wish you would be happy with me. I know sorry isnt good enough for what i did to you. there are days i wish i can turn back time and fix it. But i know what is done is done and i cant change it. I just want you to know that i love you and always will. You will always be on my mind and i will always have a deep and madly love for you. i am very sorry and i want you to be happy darling..